When Life Happens.

What do you do, when life runs away?  What about the moment you realize that you TRULY have no control.  How do you cope.  This is a scary moment of reality, as you watch the people around you virtually scooping up your life into a bag of experiences you may or may not have asked for.

I try to be positive.  I try to see every opportunity as one with faith.  I believe in growth and experiences that foster that.  However, what if you want to cash in your sick pay on the "growth meter" .  I am frantically looking for the pause button, but I think someone stole it.  Maybe it got stolen back when my innocence was stolen.  Maybe i misplaced it.  If only it were that simple.

So, the question is, is loss of innocence and faith good, or bad, or does it even matter????  I don't ever want to be a cold, bitter, angry, regretfull person.  However, it seems that life wants to test that statement all too often.  I'm not quite sure how much lemonade I need, but the fridge is full.

Thank you life, please offer someone else some lemonade now.

The Reason For Sasha's Bottle-Break-Away......

The proof is in print....... I dare you to challenge me on this one......  addiction sucks... for the addict and the family of...... (test me on this...I dare you.)

Our New Set-up.....

With winter right around the corner, we decided we needed to take swift action in our home if any of us were going to be able to survive the couped up months.  We turned a small area into our living room into a "kid zone" equipt with toys, a couch (made from a crib mattress and pillows), a TV, some video games (sure to give any 1977 games a good run, based on the fact that I despise video games), and a hardwood floor for injuries and oil wrestling (minus the oil wrestling.....it just sounded fun).  Good Luck winter.... you have met your match. (or something like that........)

The Newest 2 Members of our Family

When I was in school, I don't remember being sent home with 2 live caterpillars, but apparently school is not what it used to be.   Today, Zehn came home with 2 live caterpillars that we are suppose to nurture and turn into butterflies.  So far, I have killed 3 fish, sent away one dog, one cat and barely fed my children......  Good luck Butterflies.

TIME TO PLAY CATCH UP

After my USB connector broke and I have been unable to transfer pictures from my camera to my computer, I realized that Facebook is probably not the most practical way for me to share pictures any longer as I have over 300 new pics from the past month or so.  I am going to attempt to play catch up with this blog starting from the beginning of 2009.  This year has been absolutely amazing and I want to have a chronicle to be able to look back on not only for myself, but my family and friends as well.

I am still fairly new to the blog world (although I did set up a scrapbook blog in about 48 hours) so bear with me while I figure this out.  I am hoping that I can back-date posts and give stories along with the photos. 

Stay tuned.  Here goes nothing.

Family Day at Wheeler Farm

Our Family is crazy......   we yell and we say a lot of swear words.... but we love each other harder than 90% of families I know.  Thanks Guys.  You are my sanctuary...... we have been to hell and back and we are stronger than steel.    Nothing can break us.  I love you.  All three of you.  Tantrums and all (yes, J, that includes you)

JJ and Sasha.  These 2 are BFF's

Oh, ya know...... just chillin.......

I want one...... (enough said)

The ducks that thought they were flamingos (notice they are all standing on one foot.....)

Zehn thought he should ride in the stroller, JJ didn't........   guess who won.....

I have the cutest kids on earth..... challenge me....  I dare you.

Yeah, that's right.... my kid's are on the pot........

 Whatcha doin kids?!?!?!?!?!

 

Picture # 3 before the goose....

Picture # 2 before the goose.....

Picture #1 before the goose......

THE GOOSE......(almost took sasha's hand)

LOOK DAD!!!!!!!  I still have both hands...... (even though those 2 moms walking past us couldn't stop laughing because you swallowed your weight in air when the goose snapped at me,......)

This is my world now.......

Where we going brother........?????????

 

We are outttttta here sis....

.............as long as we have candy....

AND a rodent ( a ferret, which Sash HATED, BTW)

Da pumpkin patch

Sasha's pumpkin

Zehn's pumpkin

Camera wars with dad.......

We traded in some goods for this video camera..... Sash was getting too old, and too cute, and too mouthy for us to miss the moment.  Grandma and Grandpa Johnson have given us too much to miss out on Sasha's precious moments.  We are ready.......set.......GO.

My babies.....

My family.

Sasha's School Picture Day

Picture day would be soooooo much better with blue rubber boots.......

These boots are SO cute.

So, apparently picture day didn't go so great.  When I went to pick up Sasha from school, they informed me that they like to watch her throw tantrums because she has "5 year old" tantrums.   ?!?!?  My girl is 2.  What is 5 year old about that.  I guess the combo of her daddy and I makes her 5.  Awesome.  Anyhow, she looked darling, but apparently pulled her ponytail out right before pics were shot.  Her sweet teacher was frantically trying to tame the wild hair with a baby wipe before the photographer shot the pic.  Can't wait to see these pics.  Good job Sash......

This is us.....

This is us....

We are not traditional and we don't want to be. I have spent years coddling the internal pull for a "traditional life". However, over the past 12 months I have embraced "what is" and since that moment have had happiness beyond anything I have ever known.

We live and love more than most people I have ever met. We embrace every moment for what it is.... memory experience or learning experience. I wouldn't change one second of my life thus far. Would I repeat it in the future....probably not... but isn't that what learning is all about.?!?! Mistakes are only mistakes when repeated.

JJ, I love you. You are my embankment in the rapids of the river we call life. Sasha and Zehn, you are my life jacket. Zo, right now you are the rocks that cause the rapids, but I love you because you are the beauty of the river. Without you, we would have no rapids. And regardless of the past, or choices..... you are one of my soulmates. I hope to find peace with you in the future.

Thank you all for giving me life and love. I would be less without your souls, but I would not be zero.... for I am complete.

To all the friends I have not kept in contact with..... please accept my apology. I love you in the same manner as the last time I saw you, but my journey has taken me to a place of wonderment and exploration. I have found my center. I have it now and would love to bring you back into my life for whatever purpose it may bring.....

Love and Light and Peace Forever -

Jenn

Here we are

Well, thanks to my mother (who asked if the internet was open on sunday), I have decided to join the world of blogging. I have actually opened 3 separate accounts for 3 separate purposes..... see if you can find my others ;)

Anyhow, this seems to be the hot shizzle these dizzles so I am going to hop on the train. This is my personal blog and will be used to update friends and family of the happenings a - la - saga - o - Jenn. And yes, we all know that these...um... "events" can drastically change from victory to tragedy withing a few minutes.... multiple times a day.

Thank you mom, for being internet savy enough to know what a "blog" is. I am sure I will enjoy this time, as I hope will all of you.

One Love - Jenn

Sasha's First Ice Cream

Not sure how flattering these pictures are, she looks more like Chunk from the Goonies, but I had to put up her first Ice Cream.  Mint Chocolate Chip.  Yummy.  (her daddy makes the same faces when eating ice cream)